Zoltar

Suddenly I’m wondering about Zoltar.

The evening mind is like this, curious

but weak. I’m reading about the movie Big,

I am checking in with myself, remembering

all the jokes I’ve ever made about Big,

which are frequent and ongoing,

which is starting to seem unreal and desperate.

I’ve only seen Big once. I didn’t know Zoltar

came from Big. Did Zoltar come from Big?

Wikipedia links to Zoltar redirect to Big. 

I have to stop making jokes about a movie

that I don’t even remember. I have to

grow up. Isn’t that what Big’s about? 

I’m interested in Zoltar for academic reasons.

I think Zoltar has something to do with alchemy.

Zoltar exists in the continuum from “brazen”

meaning one thing to “brazen” meaning another thing,

and yet it holds neither meaning.

When I think I’m seeing a Zoltar, 

am I seeing something else?

Is Zoltar the kleenex of prognostication?

The tampax of divination?

The band-aid of brazen heads?

Truly the mind is drowning by eight.

Was it ever thus? Which came first,

exhaustion or inquiry? 

Which came first,

Zoltar or Big?