Playing it

“Laura, you’re writing to him like you're totally in love.” 
She'd come up from behind me in my dorm room.

I can still feel the shame twenty years later.

Isn't love good?

I didn’t think I was in love; 

I wasn’t thinking, 

I thought I was doing something casual,  

I felt ashamed of not knowing I was in love, 

if I was in love. 

I was trying to be normal. 

Playing it cool, I’m over it

So 2006

A few weeks ago I had a dream and I almost told you about it 

but I wasn't sure if it would sound like I was in love with you. 

I might be, I don't know.

My love is everywhere and senseless as it should be 

We hugged, 

You put your head in my lap.
It felt amazing.

That was the dream. 

Thank you for that.